Garden of Love

Me and the kids planted our garden and we love it! It is so fun to see our plants and herbs grow and the kids love seeing the flowers turn into fruits and veggies. Here is some pics of the garden and the scarecrow we made.

Nico Sofi Kayla

So ive not updated my blog for a year, so heres a quick brief of the past year.

 on the airplane to argentina

                                                 at the beach in argentina

Sofi

Nicos first day of Primary!

EASTER!

Kayla had to wear hers

Sofi needs her beauty moments

Yard sale!

Nicos birthday seeing The Avengers movie

Nico protecting sofi from the rain

I will update more later!

Idaho udaho

I guess its safe to say that now im an official idahoen. We have been here almost 5 months and dont plan on leaving soon. Walk away from only $250 rent and grandma living next door? phsaw right.

My yard squirrels have officially accepted me as mother peanut feeder. I used to really love them until they decided they like to come die in my yard. After seeing stiff dead squirrels on the lawn i cant really think they are cute anymore.

I really love idaho so far. It is the most family and kid friendly place i have ever been. Everyone here loves kids and pretty much every store has special carts for kids and most the restaurants offer kids menues to order right when you sit down so that the kids dont have to try not to be naughty as long. There are so many parks and fun places for the kids and not alot of crime. Best word to describe idaho? chill

When we got here our house was in need of some love. So naturally i redid the whole kitchen floor, painted cabinets, walls, livingroom, bedroom, re did whole bathroom floor, walls, cabinet, shower, etc. Its been so much fun. I will post pics when i can keep the rooms clean enough to take a picture.

We have geese i could kill next door. They bit sofi once and try to get a taste of nico everytime he gets to close. They also have chickens with babies that are so cute i want to die every time i see them running super fast across their yard. There are 2 other chickens i have never seen before this and they have extra fluff on their feet and bodies. So cute! Im having a cute attack. Their is a horse pasture down the street that has like 20 horses. I chose my favorite one and i call it horsy. Im not very creative.

Nico talks so much now. He knows the whole alphabet and kicks his little leg everytime he sees the letter K. k is for kick. ya he takes it litterally. Everytime we take him to play at micky Ds he tells us how fun it was for 3 hours after. He plays the playstation better then i do and can find me any movie on netflix. Love him.

Sofi does whatever nico tells her to do. They fight alot and she usually ends up biting him and then its over. She knows every word he knows and she likes to sing. They tell me to sing and if i sing the wrong song they shoosh me until i get the right one. Sofi wants to share everything with kayla and likes to sit on top of her. She loves to dance. Except for when i get a camera out and want to document her dancing. I guess she is a closet dancer for now.

Kayla is the cutest thing i ever made. Dimples. Sucks on her toes and blows bubbles all day. Little hands that i have to be careful with cause she will grab anything and sometimes i dont even get how she got something she is so quick. I dont ever want her to grow up. Or crawl. Or walk.

The only thing i miss about utah right now is family and hiking Y mountain. Other then that they have everything and more that i need right here. They even have a salsa club.

KAYLA SAMANTHA TAPIA

OCTOBER 25 2010

Planned, prepared, excited.

Until i got the shot.

I knew something was wrong the moment i couldnt feel my whole body and slowly couldnt feel my chest and arms.

" Is it normal to not feel my chest and arms?" i say

" o sure for us short people it is" idiot anethesiologist says

" ok," i think to myself. " just calm down and it will all be over soon..."

Then the unvoluntary jaw clenching started. Every time they moved my body i felt more of me go numb. My chest, my jaw, whats next my brain? i freak out at this thought.

" Is this normal?" i asked the casual doctors who were moving quickly to get the surgery going.

no answer... they were worried because of my excess bleeding....

" I cant stop clenching my jaw" i feel like i shouted this time as my anxiety became too hard to supress.

" oh thats probably just cause your nervous" my ob says in ignorance. Barely looking away from her work.

This is not normal. I cant stop clenching my jaw. I cant talk. im bleeding to much. im scared. i try to get words out to tell gaston to help me and it barely comes out in broken wispers. Im going to die i think to myself. Im being slowly paralyzed to death and no one even notices!!! I want to scream, get up and run away, or just die now out of fear.

baby comes out.

im happy but so litterally paralyzed and scared i cant even turn my head to look at her the first time they want to show her to me.

What is happening! i scream in my head. Gaston says " here she is honey,"

i want to turn, see my new angel , touch her, hold her, but i cant and all i can get out is " i...cant...." in struggled wisper. Gaston knows something is wrong.

They take baby away to get cleaned. I grasp gastons hand as hard as i can and he is scared. He has no idea whats going on behind my closed eyes.

Its ok i can handle this.

i ask gaston how much longer and sensing my fear he tells me "all most done."

i can handle this. ( wave of numbness and jaw clenching)

i can handle this (worse wave and more jaw clenching)

i cant feel my chest move when i breath.

I cant handle this.

" I...cant...stop...clenching...my...jaw..." i struggle to get out one last time begging for help.

" oh well i can give you a sedative if you want, but you wont remember anything...?" the anesthesiologist says

"give it to me!" is all i can say. what an idiot.

Slowly the effects ware off to where i can finally look up at gaston. "You ok?" he asks

i just want to cry.

Baby Kayla had been crying so i asked to see her.

Gaston brings her to me.

" hello my love!" i say to my tiny angel.

she stops crying at the sound of my voice and turns her face towards mine. She is beautiful. So beautiful. Curly black hair, white skin like mine, could be a triplet to my other 2 babies. I instantly love her.

She doesnt leave my side as im sewn up and wheeled to my room. As soon as the post delivery body shaking calms down i finally get to have her in my arms where she belongs.

Ready or Not here it comes!!!!

Oh boy. Baby number 3 is on the way. They really mean it when they say you are more fertile the year following a baby. Although this pregnancy wasnt EXACTLY planned im still glad it happened. Now i just have to get used to the idea and make a plan to take really good care of myself this time. I dont want another birth like sofi's and i feel like it was a result of me not taking care of myself the way i should during pregnancy. SO my goal this time is to follow a strict pregnancy nutrition diet and i hope i can stick too it. Ive also started some belly dancing classes hoping to help my body and they say belly dancing was invented for pregnant women so i hope it goes well. I really like it so far. I am happy to have my babies close together. Im hoping for twins this time so i can have my four kids and be all done! I want to be done having kids before im 28. So i can be done with child bearing years and fix my body for good(whats the point of after each baby trying to get "back to normal" when as soon as you do you want another baby?) and get to enjoy the rest of my life with my little ones and not have to be pregnant ever again! It will be hard but it will be worth it. People think im crazy, and i think those people are annoying.

Choose your own adventure

Lately my life feels like one of those choose your own adventure books i used to read during the summers when all the other garfield comic books were checked out. We keep making dramatic desisions during the course of our life that we think will take us to our happily ever after but then those pages that ask you to choose between various off course paths that will eventually take you to a different ending. Our latest page stopper was a letter in the mail saying we had to be in utah by the 29th of january or we would loose gastons status and would have to start immigration crap all over again and not be able to return to the states until it is complete. That could take years. So what do we do you ask? Well we have no choice but to choose that adventure and see where it takes us. For now it takes us back to were we sold everything we had and now have absolutely nothing, except for family. So those of you who will soon be getting a phone call from me, consider yourself a savior in the choose your own adventure book of my life. We have to stay there for the rest of the year. So that gives us time to find our next "what do you want to do now" page. Wish me luck. Or give me money. Whichever you think would help me more :)

An update on our lives

Our time here has flown by. It seems like forever and not at the same time. Christmas and new years were fun, we spent the holidays with family gaston hasnt seen for years and it was fun for everyone to get to know each other.
We have spent alot of our days escaping the heat up in the mountains where we can hike into areas of water that are so beautiful and tranquilo. Sitting by the pools of water drinking mate and eating the cookies , that by the way are the best cookies i have ever eaten, and then hiking back down to the place where the huge grills are and having a nice bbq.
Nico is learning a new word every day and getting more and more curious about everything and we have only lost him once. He ended up being behind a curtain. He likes throwing and eating rocks and especially loves taking care of his little sister. by taking care i mean smothering her with hugs in the morning, litterally, and trying to feed her everything he eats, and force giving her her binky when she crys. So cute.
Sophia sits on her own and loves to try to eat EVERYTHING!! She often takes nicos cookies right out of his hands if he gets too close and hurries and shoves it into her mouth and sucks on it like crazy. She loves to eat and is getting chubbier by the day.
Gastons ankle is mostly better, i hope, he took of his cast three weeks early and is just casual walking on a broken bone despite my nagging him to stop and let the freakin thing heal, he aslo has been busy making buisness deals and getting things ready so that when we go back to utah in a march (hopefully sooner) we can run things from there.
Me... the life style here is really simple and so most things here are done by hand, so most of the day i spend doing laundry and hanging it on the line, Heating up the water for a warm shower if im not to lasy, taking naps, preparing meals, playing with the hose and water on way too hot days and i actually really like it. It makes you appritiate everything in life. Im enjoying our now vacation and am actually secretly happy that we HAVE to go back for at least a year. I miss my family. And my own bed. And bath tubs. And not having to share the bed with nico. He takes up half the bed and me and gaston squish together on the other half. The things we suffer for our children.